Thursday, May 3, 2012

The Evolution of a Blogger

Instagram photo of my little sick Lucy, lying in my lap.  Ben is well, but now Alice & Lucy are running fevers now.  It is SO sad when babies are sick!  I am pouring everything I've got into being their 24/7 comfort object.

What I want to say today... Blogging is so important to me.  When I published my first post in 2003, I was a lonely 21-year-old with a baby and an absent husband.  Blogging was a lot different then.  There was a smaller audience, but people made deep connections with their blogging communities.  I literally could not have gotten through my divorce and the subsequent grief without having a safe place to "vent", where anonymous friends could offer perspective and comfort.  It was amazing.

When we moved to Houston in 2005, I used my blog for a completely different purpose.  I wanted to stay connected to my family and friends, and made my blog public for that reason.  I loved sharing stories of my family and feeling like I could still share my life with people i loved, even though we were far away.

By 2010, almost everyone I knew (even my Grandpa!) got on Facebook.  My need to blog faded, as Facebook was a real-time way to stay in touch with my family and friends.  I didn't need to write here to share my photos, my thoughts, or children's milestones.  I also went through a period of regret of how much I shared online with the public, and wiped my archives from public view.

However, things are changing in my heart and life again.  I am about to be a mom to a 10-year-old.  I love looking back at my first posts, reading about my baby Maddy Sophie and remembering growing up with her.  I love reading about my first dates with Adam, and falling in the love-of-my-life.  I love having the birth story of each of my children and having cute photos to go along with my stories of our family life.  I hate that Facebook took over my "blogging time" and that I don't have the same records of Lucy and Alice.

So... to make a long story short (Ha, as if I could EVER do that!) I am taking back my blog.  I am determined to make time for daily posts, even if it is just a one-liner of cute things my babies said.  I want to print out my blogs each year and bind them, as a record of our family memories.  I don't want to look back on our early years by scrolling through old Facebook statuses.  It is definitely not the same.  ;)

I can't promise to be interesting or exciting.  You will notice I don't have and never will have ads on my blog.  My purpose is not to keep srangers "hooked" on my words, but to share bits of my happily ever after (and the bad days too) in a real and honest way, so I don't forget what it was like to be the mom of five children and a 30ish wife to my Adam.  This IS the best time of my life so far, and I want to always remember and cherish it.

I am considering making my old posts public again, but of course, a lot would need editing/redacting.  I am not sure about it, and will need to think about it for awhile longer.


Sarah said...

I cannot wait to read more from you again! :)

Stephanie said...

I was your very first follower :-) Even though we've never met in person, I feel as though you are a very close friend. You've come such a long way! I'm glad I could follow along on your adventure and be there to cry and celebrate with you :-)

Maggie said...

Yay! This makes me so happy! You were the first blog I ever started reading and the inspiration to start my own!