Friday, June 10, 2011

I'm Not "Fine," Really


We went in for our ultrasound on Monday, and there was no heartbeat... no baby.  There was a yolk sac.  From my count, I should have been 7.5 weeks along.  I was measuring at 5 weeks.  
My hope is, the calendar was wrong and it was just too early.  My fear is, the baby stopped growing at 5 weeks.

We have another ultrasound on Monday, June 20th.

I've never had a miscarriage, and am trying NOT to give in to fear but it is probably the hardest thing ever.

And how ironic is it that my tests for the BIG SCARY DIAGNOSIS we feared were negative.  Praise God for that.  Now, I just need to hold onto faith and hope and peace that my baby is okay and that we really will be fine.

I don't expect to have much to say before then, here.  Now it is just time to wait and breathe.

11 comments:

Allison said...

Praying for you!

JoAnna said...

I hope and pray that everything will be all right, and for grace and strength for you regardless of the outcome. I've been through miscarriage twice and it is so, so hard... **hugs**

Catholic Mommy Brain said...

Will be praying.

Maggie said...

I know it's so scary... know you have a whole army praying for you!

Aimee said...

You are in my prayers!

Pat said...

you and your family continue to be in my prayers.

Ashley said...

I've been thinking of you. I would feel the exact same way. I'm hoping, hoping, hoping for the best outcome. <3

Jen said...

Oh, Lerin, I am so sorry you're going through this. You're definitely in my prayers. Hold on to hope and faith...I know it's hard.

Jane said...

I'm saying prayers for you, for baby, and for your family!

Therese said...

I cannot think of anything more painful than having a miscarriage. I really hope the baby is okay. I will be keeping you and your sweet baby in my prayers.

The Mama said...

Thinking about you and praying for a heartbeat on the 20th! I'm so happy to hear that your other tests were negative, as well. Huge praises for God. Love you!