Monday, April 18, 2011

Clutter



I crave peace.  Does everyone feel this way?  I'm sure they do.

I don't know how it happened, but somehow, my life has become very cluttered.  My home, especially my office, has become a dumping ground of stacked paperwork and photography props and magazines and... just, stuff.  Lots of stuff.

When I sit here editing photos in the wee hours of morning when I can't sleep... it's because my mind is cluttered. I have so much anxiety and worry.  My email inbox is cluttered, and so is my Facebook "news" feed.  I am bombarded with so much information and bad news.

I think a time of serious purging is at hand!  I expect I will get rid of many things, unsubscribe to emails, and clean up my Facebook.  I've restructured my photography packages, and I expect that my business will decrease by at least 50%, if not more.

I've struggled with prayer on and off for most of my life, but never as much as I have in the last year or so.  I just can't get my mind to be quiet and still.  My mind is always racing and my days are long & busy.  I close my eyes to pray, and instead... a to-do list pops in my mind.  Or a health worry.  Any number of things... but He said:

Be still, and know that I am God.

God, as the last week of Lent begins, please help me to be still, and to know that you are God.

3 comments:

Josette said...

Lerin,


You can take this advice from a lady who at one time couldn't even sleep at night because of anxiety...

Make your life simplier. Don't take on too much. It's better to put in prayer time each day then to get in a photo shoot or the like...if you make it first everything will fall into place (this was hard for me to do. I remember trying to pray while my mind raced on all I had to do that day...but it will get done.)

When I was getting these same feelings, my husband and I discussed what to do and he (wise man that he is) made me drop a lot of activities (even some volunteer work) so I wouldn't be so frazzled. I have learned to say no. I have learned that I have to take care of myself and that means first and foremost my spiritual life or I am not good for anyone!

Maggie said...

I crave peace as well... and right now, with being in the middle of a big move I have NONE. I have a feeling this will be a crappy Holy Week! :-( Hope things get better for you!

Liz @ Sugarplum Creations said...

I know exactly how you feel. I WANT to be still and listen, but I'm always running through the millions of things that need to be done. Hope you find peace soon.