Monday, April 18, 2011
I crave peace. Does everyone feel this way? I'm sure they do.
I don't know how it happened, but somehow, my life has become very cluttered. My home, especially my office, has become a dumping ground of stacked paperwork and photography props and magazines and... just, stuff. Lots of stuff.
When I sit here editing photos in the wee hours of morning when I can't sleep... it's because my mind is cluttered. I have so much anxiety and worry. My email inbox is cluttered, and so is my Facebook "news" feed. I am bombarded with so much information and bad news.
I think a time of serious purging is at hand! I expect I will get rid of many things, unsubscribe to emails, and clean up my Facebook. I've restructured my photography packages, and I expect that my business will decrease by at least 50%, if not more.
I've struggled with prayer on and off for most of my life, but never as much as I have in the last year or so. I just can't get my mind to be quiet and still. My mind is always racing and my days are long & busy. I close my eyes to pray, and instead... a to-do list pops in my mind. Or a health worry. Any number of things... but He said:
Be still, and know that I am God.
God, as the last week of Lent begins, please help me to be still, and to know that you are God.
at 3:55 AM